Loki Renard-Scar

So, a couple of weeks ago, Loki Renard released a new book. This one pretty much decimated me. It was wonderful and terrible and brutal and tender, all at once. Honestly, I still don’t quite have all the right words to describe the feelings that Scar inspired in me.

Mary Brown has been trapped in a hospital. Well, let’s be generous and call where she is a hospital, I mean, it is in the upper story of a hospital. She doesn’t know how long she’s been there, all she knows that is that she’s nearly gone. So when a man in black stands over her and tells her that he’s there to get her out, she’s pretty sure that she’s hallucinating.

Ken Ares is a Special Forces soldier who is in between enlistments. So he took a private job. It was his job to bust Mary Brown out of the torture hospital that she’s spent untold months in. When he sees her, she’s nearly catatonic, and there isn’t a whole lot of life in her eyes. He manages to get her out, gets her to someplace sort of safe, and calls for an evac for her. He never thought he would see her again.

Fast forward to Afghanistan and a year or so later. Mary is there as an embedded journalist and Ken’s commanding officer just embedded her in the unit that he is in. He’s doing some scouting before his Special Forces team joins him. On their first mission, she doesn’t listen to him and talks to some of the women in the village and gives them some little things like soaps and shampoos. Ken yells at her, and since they are sharing quarters, spanks her, and then they have mindblowing sex. A few days later, on another mission, they go back through the area after an attack, and Mary sees one of the women she had talked to before having her soap taken from her and a man beating her. Mary jumps out of the transport they are in and goes to beat the shit out of the man. Ken totally flips out because she’s blown all kinds of things now, has her press credentials pulled, and then sends her home. She’s devastated, of course, and is pretty sure that he hates her. So when she gets to the airport in the states, and his brother Tom is there, she’s not sure what to think. She tells Tom that she’ll just leave because bad things will happen, but he brings her to his house anyway.

This isn’t the darkest thing I’ve read. It’s not even the darkest thing that I’ve read that Loki is written. But then again, it kind of is the darkest thing that I’ve read that Loki has written. I know that doesn’t make sense at all, but, like I said, this one is still defying my prodigious vocabulary in trying to define my feelings. Probably if I spoke German, I could mash a few words together to come up with the right emotion. German is good for that. I cried because of this one. When I reread it, I expect that I will cry again at the same spots, and probably for the same reasons.

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OK, I so totally didn’t expect anything about Mary’s past. That was a total shocker. But I can see why she said that she had secrets and that bad things would be happening and were coming.

I have to say that I saw the Head as Amanda Waller from the DC comics, also known as the Wall. It’s that same kind of I will bury you and not think of you after I do kind of attitude. If you saw Suicide Squad, remember where Viola Davis as Waller shoots all the FBI agents who were there to help her? Yeah, that’s the attitude. That’s who I saw the Head as, and frankly, that works really, really well.

OK, that’s all I have to say about this one. Go check it out. I want to hear what kind of emotions it inspires in you.

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