Nicolina Martin-Saving Sandra

Saving Sandra is the second book in Nicolina’s West Coast Doms book. For a refresher, Commanding Casey was the first one. In that book, Cole was the male main character, and his ex-wife is Sandra, the female main character in this one. CC got darkish at times, but this one? It gets lightish at times. And I’m not going to lie, I straight up fucking hated Samuel for a chunk of time. I had complicated feelings about him for most of the book. And I fucking love that. So, let’s talk about the book, shall we?

Sandra is an actress, and she’s currently filming. The director isn’t listening to her and her co-start is faking a relationship with her for the publicity of the movie. She’s being followed by paparazzi, she has to show up at events, and she has to be “ON” all the time. She has her two kids every other week, so when she doesn’t have her kids, she tries to do all the business type stuff so that she can spend time with her kids while they are there. All in all, Sandra is just fucking exhausted. She is never just herself anymore, she has to always be Sandra the Star or Sandra the Mommy.

So, one night, when she’s drunk, Sandra starts an account on a kinky dating site. When she checks the next day, she takes a few minutes and all of a sudden, starts talking to Savage666. And, well, let’s just say that Savage fits him quite well. He outright tells her that he wants to hurt her, that he enjoys hurting her, and the things that he says he wants to do sound scary but Sandra is all for them, even if she is scared spitless. (That’s OK, she’s wet in other places)

We first meet Savage666, AKA Samuel, when he’s talking to a psych doc, talking about his past. And well, he’s not necessarily nice, but the nice lady psych doc is intrigued by him. And she’s more than happy to be intrigued by him, at least, until he leaves.

He’s cruising through a kinky site and he finds Breathless and starts to talk to her. He decides that she’s going to be his, so he slowly starts to reel her in. Any time that Breathless has an objection, he either has an answer or he just cuts contact until she works through them on her own and then waits for her to contact him. He is always completely bluntly honest with her and tells her what he wants from her and what he wants her to do.

I like Sandra, most of the time. I really get the being tired part and trying to find something for herself part. It’s hard to try to be everything to everyone. She has to hide herself all of the time, and that’s just so hard. I don’t blame her for being tired to her soul. There are a few times when I kinda want to smack her, but that’s my annoyance speaking. It wasn’t any big thing at any point, it was just something that would trigger that. I never thought that she was too stupid to live, but I did think that there were a couple of times that she really just skirted that line really closely. Then again, I don’t know that the story would’ve worked as well if she made different decisions at that point.

OK, let’s talk about Samuel. I do have very complex feelings about him. At the beginning, I really hated him. But then we hit a point where boom, I feel a whole different way about him. In the beginning of the book, and when he’s first talking to Sandra, he talks about how much of a monster he is and how horrible, terrible, awful, and bad he is. I think that maybe he wasn’t as bad and monstrous as he said he was. Don’t get me wrong, he’s not a nice guy. He does bad shit. He’s an asshole. Period. But, I don’t think that he’s quite as bad as he says or thinks he is. I think he uses it to protect himself, subconsciously. I mean, I think that the top of his brain really believes it, but the bottom of his brain knows better and it’s trying to protect itself. Does that make sense? It does in my head, and that’s the important part.

I was trying to explain to my husband about my feelings about Samuel, and I think that I did OK, which helped me write the last paragraph, but like I said, complex af.

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