Eva Dresden-Destroyed

Destroyed is the 3rd book in Eva’s Omega Destruction series. The first two books have been pretty damn dark, and when I say dark, you know that I mean dark. But so good. So, so, so good. And the last one is no different. Eva took everything from the other books and built it into something that is just intense and perfect. It has its moments when it’s dark, but as is often the case with a trilogy, it does get a bit lighter as it goes. Just to warn you, there is likely to be spoilers from the other books, just because of the way that they were left.

So, here’s where we are. Quinn and Tobias are living in their house with their 2 beautiful children, as well as their staff. Tobias is still trying to get Quinn pregnant and forcing her to take fertility meds. They aren’t quite taking yet, and they are making her sick. She can’t keep anything down, can’t stay awake, and is just incredibly miserable. She keeps telling Tobias how sick she is, but he doesn’t just quite believe her.

She’s also struggling against the bond that he made her form with him. She’s fighting against having his feelings in her heart and head all the time. She keeps fighting because she feels like she isn’t fighting for her life, she’s fighting for her very self. And it’s hard, so hard on her to do it. Especially since she’s fighting herself almost as much as she’s fighting him.

I think that about 1/2 of the problems that Quinn and Tobias had in this book would have been solved with better communication skills. If they had stopped and talked about some of their issues, I think that they would’ve been happier sooner, and I think that some of the other issues would’ve been figured out sooner or not even able to form.

At one point, Quinn does something that makes Tobias understand some of what she’s been feeling in her life, and I think that gives him an epiphany. He really is a typical Alpha, and I mean, not only is he an Alpha, he’s the Alpha-iest Alpha around. He is so positive that he knows what’s best and he knows everything, and he will really just roll over everyone in his way. He may hear what Quinn is saying, but he isn’t really listening to what she is saying. She needs to get his attention to get him to listen to what she’s saying. She needs to smack him upside the head with a cluex4. Smacking him with the cluex4 makes him slow down, shut up, and actually focus enough for her to get him to listen. Of course, this is all metaphorical, and it had to happen a couple of times, to truly get her point across, but it eventually got there.

I also think that Quinn could’ve backed down a little bit more when it came to her fight. I totally get wanting to have her independence and not wanting to lose her sense of self in Tobias, but I think that if she had loosened up just a little, things would’ve been better.

I’d like to get a novella sometime in the future that is all about the Kahlers in the future. I want to see how everyone presented, and Tobias and Quinn as they age.

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I really like the doctor. I thought that she handled everything really well.

OK, that’s all I have to say on this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!

2019 Round Up: Top 10 Darkest Reads Pt. 1

So, we’re just days away from having another year under our belt. I’ve read another 800 books. I’ve written a few more blogs. Life has been in an uproar, it has been calm, it has been happy and sad. So, with a few more days left in the year, I thought that I would start my yearly round up. This blog is going to be part one of the top 10 darkest reads I read this year. They are going to be in no particular order, just however they happen to come to me.

Before I get started, I want to mention that I’m going to be giving away books and gift cards in my group, Slip in Between the Pages tomorrow and Christmas, so come check it out! And now, on to the books.

Addison Cain-Immaculate

Immaculate first showed up as a short story in Twisted Sacrament, and damn, was that twisted, and this won’t be the only story to show up on this list from that anthology. Anyway, when Addison got the rights back, she brought it out on its own. It takes place in the Vatican during the Renaissance. Our main character is a lovely young lady named Lady Agnese who has been kept pure and virginal so that she can serve God. It’s a very disturbing story because the story could absolutely have happened.

Jennifer Bene & Shane Starett-Jasmine

Jasmine was Shane’s second book and a co-write with Jennifer, who shows up on the blog all the time. I have a feeling Shane will too, as long as he likes me. 🙂 Jasmine is a woman who has been trapped by a man who says that she’s his wife, and she will obey him. The problem is that she really isn’t. The book was twisty turny, and packed full of places where if one small thing had happened differently, the entire book would’ve been different.

Jennifer Bene-Reign of Ruin

Reign of Ruin was another book that came out of Twisted Sacrament. RoR is what happens when Handmaid’s Tale meets the Apocalypse. I am going to flat out say that it scared the shit out of me. Handmaid’s Tale is hands down one of the scariest books I’ve ever read, because I can see how it can happen. I could see RoR happening too. I really did love the book though, even being scared by it. I would really love to see more of this world.

Eva Dresden-Broken

Broken really flat out broke me. Eva wrote a very dark MF Omegaverse, and Quinn really got the shit end of the stick. I mean, the stick was dipped into the shittiest, nastiest, most disgusting shit that you have ever seen, and then it was handed to her. And that was the good days. She ends up stuck in hell, and doesn’t see any chance of her hell getting better. And she’s right. I really felt for Quinn, a lot. The second book has come out, and I’m eagerly awaiting the 3rd.

Myra Danvers-Delirium

Delirium may not be as dark as some of the others on this, but it is pretty fucked up. There is a whole lot of action in here, and a whole lot more dark humor. I figured it was going to be a space opera, which it was, but it was a space opera plus. It was a twisty ride, and Iris just made it better. She’s in that category of crazy heroine who is fucking chaos embodied. She will take a disaster and make it even worse. And laugh while she’s doing it. I like that about her.

So, there’s the first 5 of my Top Ten dark books of 2019. Check back tomorrow to see what comes next.

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Eva Dresden-Damaged

Well, Eva’s back. And she’s as dark as ever. Her Broken really broke me, and Damaged did a lot of damage to my peace of mind. It is dark, and some really horrible shit happens to Quinn in this book.

When we left Quinn, she had been repeatedly gang raped by a shitload of men, and was shattered and broken. She has been dropped off with a man named Lee, who is a crimelord in his own right, and a not very nice man at all. He has an entourage of even nastier Alphas who hang around him, including Ilya. Lee really likes the very pregnant Quinn, and coddles her, well sorta, while at the same time fucking her brains out. As a very pregnant Omega, she needs to have an Alpha help her. It should be her mate, but it’s not, it’s Lee. Lee, who likes to take her down to his torture chamber and make her watch him and his men literally tear people apart.

Quinn, who should be breaking down in all the bad ways, is staying as strong as she possibly can. She’s got to save her child. She wants to get out of Lee’s grasp, but she knows that she can’t, at least not while she’s pregnant. She just can’t see any way to do it. Lee has promised to not do anything to her daughter, so she’ll just go along as well she can, until a point comes when she can’t.

Meanwhile, there are all kinds of things going on that Quinn doesn’t even know about. Of course, we don’t know about a lot of them until they happen, which makes them even more shocking. We do get to see some of the machinations because there are times when the story isn’t in Quinn’s POV, but not often. I think that it works really well that way. I’m not going to complain one little bit about it.

There is going to be at least one more part to this series, I think. I’m really interested in getting to the next book, because of the way that certain things happened towards the end of this book. I can’t say what, because spoilers, sweetie, but let’s just say that the things I’m thinking about made me wonder how much influence things can have over people. Clear as mud, right? Yeah, I know, but it’s not always easy trying to talk about these things without spoiling everything, and you know how I feel about spoilers.

Anyway, yeah, this is dark, but I feel like it’s maybe not quite as dark as the first book. Of course, not as dark doesn’t mean light at all, you know. And being dark, terrible things do happen. Really terrible things. Some good things happen too, but not nearly as much. I feel sorry for Quinn, because she’s put through so many terrible things, and she feels like she’s going crazy. Of course, she might be going crazy for all we know. Of course, being crazy in that situation would actually make sense, because when you are stuck in a crazy terrible situation, the most normal thing in the world is to end up adjusting to what’s going on so you end up crazy too. Add in a huge dose of PTSD from what happened before she got to Lee, and well, you get the picture.

And really, everyone should just let the poor woman have a cheeseburger.

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I don’t know how I feel about Tobias in this book. Yeah, he’s a hero because reasons. But he’s also an asshole because of lots of other reasons. I don’t think that the good stuff outweighs the bad stuff. But what does that make Tobias overall?

OK, that’s all for today, go check it out! Happy reading!

Eva Dresden-Broken

If you are in my FB group, then you know what my reaction was to reading Eva Dresden’s premier book, Broken. Not only does the title fit the book, but it also fit how I felt after reading it. It’s dark, it’s devastating, it’s delicious, and I need all of it. This is an MF Omegaverse novel, and it’s sooooooo goooooooood.

So here’s our story for today.  Quinn is an Omega who has been taking suppressants and such for years. For right now, she’s working as a dancer and server in a club. Some of the other women there take money for sex as well as dancing and serving, but she doesn’t. One night, she, along with some other women, get drafted to serve in a private room. When she starts to feel things she shouldn’t, she runs to the bathroom, but she gets followed, and things happen. So her bosses send her home so that she can regroup and recover, as well as go to the clinic to check to make sure her suppressants are OK.

On her way home, some jackasses accost her, but a guy in an expensive car stops them and offers to take her home. Seems like a nice guy, right? If only. Tobias is the man who owns the car, but wasn’t the man driving. He is uber-rich and is one of those guys you just. do. not. cross. He goes after what he wants and takes it, and he has decided that he wants Quinn. It doesn’t matter what Quinn wants as this point or pretty much ever again.

It’s hard to believe that this is Eva’s first published book on Amazon. Her writing is tight, creative, nuanced, layered, and tangible. I felt like I was inside Quinn’s head, literally, and that I was feeling everything that she was feeling. When Quinn was angry, I was angry with and for her. When Quinn hurt, I hurt. I would say when Quinn was happy, I felt happy, but… Quinn and Tobias are just so very real. I mean, yeah.

I really like Quinn. I think that she is really strong, even as she thinks that she is weak. You have to be strong in order to survive even half as much as Quinn has survived right now. I think that she is also stubborn. I like stubborn, I think stubborn is great. I think that she might be a little tooo stubborn sometimes. And I’m telling you, I am like one of the world’s top 10 stubborn people. So, if I’m thinking that maybe she’s a little stubborn, you can take my word for it. On the other hand, that stubbornness may be all that gets her through whatever is going to start happening. I mean, the shit that she goes through during this book is pretty bad, but I have a feeling that the next book is going to make this one look like a walk in the park.

I don’t know what I feel about Tobias. There are times when he seems almost like a real human being, but then, turn the page and he’s back to being a terrible troll. When I hate him, I hate him with the passion of a thousand white hot suns. I don’t quite like him that strongly when I like him, but there are times when I do like him.

I am not joking when I said that this book broke me. When I was done reading it, I had to go read something light and fluffy just to reset my head. It helped, but Quinn and Tobias still have taken up a lot of space in my head. If you are going to read this, make sure that you have a box of tissues and maybe some wine near to hand.

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Ugh. Tobias and the name. That’s one of the times I truly hated him.

OK, that’s all I have to say about this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!