Cari Silverwood-Isak and Red

Cari is back to her Mesmer world, and she hasn’t missed a step when it comes to that world. Isak and Red is dark, twisted, kinky af, and pretty much everything I really wanted to have. While there are several Mesmer books, this one is a direct sequel to Used.

For those who don’t remember what the Mesmers are or who aren’t familiar with the world, here’s a quick catch up. The Mesmers are always men. They have a thing in their brain that lets them control women. And I mean, completely control women. They can also wipe the memories of women. And, predictably, they are all pretty much fucked up AF. Some of the stuff these guys do is dark, disturbing, twisted, and kinky.

In this book, we have Isak and Red. He’s the Mesmer, and she’s the woman that he’s fascinated with and has controlled for years now. He’s done all kinds of things to her and to other women over the years, and now, he’s trying to figure out what to do next. He’s actually, if you can believe it, a little bored. He’s really done everything possible, twice. But then, some bad guys show up, and they want to figure out how Isak does what he does, and they have no problems hurting him or Red to find out how.

Isak and Red manage to get away, and Isak wants to try something new. He wants Red to teach him how to be human again. Which, you know, is an interesting choice. The thing is, he’s telling Red that he wants to be more human, but he’s telling himself that he doesn’t.

Oh man, there are so many things I want to say about this, because I am left with so many questions and thoughts after having read it, but if I talk about the things that I want to, then I’m going to spoil every damn thing. And I do mean every.damn.thing.

So, let’s just say that these guys are living in my head, and I have woken up a couple of times in the night wondering about the ending since I read it. I wonder how much anyone knows about what has happened or what their life is like now. It is definitely one of those stories that is going to live in my head for a while, and I will probably randomly wonder about my questions for years.

I would love to see more about Isak and Red, but I think that we are probably done with their story. I don’t know that Cari could do anything more with them, really, not without completely messing up who they are now, and I’m not entirely sure that I want them to be messed up, you know?

OK, nothing under the picture. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Nicolina Martin-Saving Sandra

Saving Sandra is the second book in Nicolina’s West Coast Doms book. For a refresher, Commanding Casey was the first one. In that book, Cole was the male main character, and his ex-wife is Sandra, the female main character in this one. CC got darkish at times, but this one? It gets lightish at times. And I’m not going to lie, I straight up fucking hated Samuel for a chunk of time. I had complicated feelings about him for most of the book. And I fucking love that. So, let’s talk about the book, shall we?

Sandra is an actress, and she’s currently filming. The director isn’t listening to her and her co-start is faking a relationship with her for the publicity of the movie. She’s being followed by paparazzi, she has to show up at events, and she has to be “ON” all the time. She has her two kids every other week, so when she doesn’t have her kids, she tries to do all the business type stuff so that she can spend time with her kids while they are there. All in all, Sandra is just fucking exhausted. She is never just herself anymore, she has to always be Sandra the Star or Sandra the Mommy.

So, one night, when she’s drunk, Sandra starts an account on a kinky dating site. When she checks the next day, she takes a few minutes and all of a sudden, starts talking to Savage666. And, well, let’s just say that Savage fits him quite well. He outright tells her that he wants to hurt her, that he enjoys hurting her, and the things that he says he wants to do sound scary but Sandra is all for them, even if she is scared spitless. (That’s OK, she’s wet in other places)

We first meet Savage666, AKA Samuel, when he’s talking to a psych doc, talking about his past. And well, he’s not necessarily nice, but the nice lady psych doc is intrigued by him. And she’s more than happy to be intrigued by him, at least, until he leaves.

He’s cruising through a kinky site and he finds Breathless and starts to talk to her. He decides that she’s going to be his, so he slowly starts to reel her in. Any time that Breathless has an objection, he either has an answer or he just cuts contact until she works through them on her own and then waits for her to contact him. He is always completely bluntly honest with her and tells her what he wants from her and what he wants her to do.

I like Sandra, most of the time. I really get the being tired part and trying to find something for herself part. It’s hard to try to be everything to everyone. She has to hide herself all of the time, and that’s just so hard. I don’t blame her for being tired to her soul. There are a few times when I kinda want to smack her, but that’s my annoyance speaking. It wasn’t any big thing at any point, it was just something that would trigger that. I never thought that she was too stupid to live, but I did think that there were a couple of times that she really just skirted that line really closely. Then again, I don’t know that the story would’ve worked as well if she made different decisions at that point.

OK, let’s talk about Samuel. I do have very complex feelings about him. At the beginning, I really hated him. But then we hit a point where boom, I feel a whole different way about him. In the beginning of the book, and when he’s first talking to Sandra, he talks about how much of a monster he is and how horrible, terrible, awful, and bad he is. I think that maybe he wasn’t as bad and monstrous as he said he was. Don’t get me wrong, he’s not a nice guy. He does bad shit. He’s an asshole. Period. But, I don’t think that he’s quite as bad as he says or thinks he is. I think he uses it to protect himself, subconsciously. I mean, I think that the top of his brain really believes it, but the bottom of his brain knows better and it’s trying to protect itself. Does that make sense? It does in my head, and that’s the important part.

I was trying to explain to my husband about my feelings about Samuel, and I think that I did OK, which helped me write the last paragraph, but like I said, complex af.

OK, nothing below the pic today. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Felicity Brandon-Her Dark Nemesis

This is the 3rd of the Gates of Fortorus books. I don’t know if Felicity is leaving this world alone now that we’ve gotten through Her Dark Nemesis or not. I’m not sure if I want to be really mad at her if she is or to be satisfied with the ending of this one. The ending is a wow, for sure, and frankly, I think that I’m happy with either way that Felicity choose to go. Of course, that didn’t stop me from yelling “Damn you, Felicity!!!” when I got to the end. My husband has now gotten used to me yelling lke that during books and doesn’t even try to get me to explain anymore, which is good, because it’s hard to sometimes. As a reminder, there will likely be spoilers for the previous books. I’ll try to limit them, but because of the way that they are written, it’s hard.

So, Caroline has managed to get out of the Commander’s headquarters. Of course, it didn’t hurt that she beaned him with a decanter and she’s pretty sure that he’s dead. All she knows is that now is her big chance, and she’s not going to miss out on it. So, she grabs some of Harper’s clothes and leaves through the window. Since she’s been with him, she knows roughly how to get out of the grounds, so she heads that way. That’s when she discovers that she’s not the only person out there.

Caroline and her companion manage to get out of the Fortorous grounds and find a farm to hide on, with a sort of friendly farmer, who tells them where they are, and gives them some food. But, then come the guards, and things change. Caroline ends up back in the Commander’s quarters.

Meanwhile, while Caroline is out and about, running free, Harper has been found bloodied and unconscious on the floor of his quarters. His private doctor comes and helps him out, and tells him that he needs to get checked out better, but there’s just one smalll problem. Or more like one huge problem. The President is about to show up and Harper doesn’t want him to know that anyone has escaped, let alone Caroline. It would be a huge problem, altogether, and it would just make the President even more paranoid and crazy, which yeah. Luckily, for Harper at least, they are able to capture Caroline and bring her back.

There are incels, and then there is this douchebag. I mean the President is basically the Incel King. The only way that he’s getting any play right now is because he can force women into it, literally. I mean, the women just have no choice. I don’t think that there is anyone who is going to orchestrate a takeover like the one described here, but I guarantee that there are men in the world who would be more than happy to do everything that the asshat is doing in this book, without a qualm. Ugh. I really want to use some KGB-esque poisoning methods on him. (Dear FBI, please understand that I’m only talking about the douchebag president in this book and I would never, ever hurt President Biden.)

Caroline still has all the fire and spunk that she has had in the previous two books. I think it’s going to take a lot of work for that to go away. She is still torn between the different parts of herself, and I still understand why. She really is in an unteneable situation, and it’s not something that I can ever even imagine what I’d do in her place. I mean, I’d like to assume that I’d be like Caroline and fiesty, because well, I am fiesty and I have a small issue with authority, but until you are in her shoes, you just can’t know. I just have one question for Felicity though. So many of her heroines are writers. Are we seeing some serious fantasy here? LOL.

Harper. Well. I can’t go into what I’m feeling abaout him right now without getting into serious spoilers. Let’s just say that the things I like about him are still there.

Oh, I don’t even know what I should put here. I know what I want to put where, but that would be more spoilers than I ever put anywhere. Let’s just say that I’m still stunned by the end.

OK, that’s all for this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Top MM Books of 2020 Pt. 2

OK, we’re back with the second part of my best MM books of 2020. I have 2 books and 1 series of 6 books on this part of the list. And yeah, the entire series belongs on this list. It’s amazing. Remember, these are in no particular order. So, let’s get to it, shall we?

Nikole Knight-Fire & Brimstone Scrolls

When I first got the ARC for Revelations, the first book, it said that it was a RH, but I think that it is more like a poly series instead. It’s 4 guys, Riley, Noel, Jairus, and Gideon. Well, it’s Riley and his 3 guardian angels, but it turns into a relationship. It’s a slow burn series, and I mean seriously slow burn. I don’t think that there is any sex stuff until late in the 2nd book, and normally I’m not a fan of such a slow burn, but the story in this one really dragged me in. It is an intense series, with a lot of horrible things that happen to the main characters, and I mean terrible, terrible, terrible things. There are discussions of previous abuse and sexual assault. The series totally broke my heart at times, but the end totally made it worth everything. Honestly, I can’t even say how much I love this series. One really awesome thing is that we get a character is on the asexual spectrum, and we get to see how the relationship works there.

Gianni Holmes-Fable’s Foes

This is a gay MC Daddy poly book, with age play. Yeah. It may sound like something that shouldn’t work. I mean, you jam all kinds of tropes into one book, and it could get messy. And I’ve seen it happen. But it didn’t here. We have Fable, who is a Little, and who has to hide himself for so many reasons. Then he gets kidnapped. He gets rescued by bikers, because they were there to rescue someone else. Booker and Zak are two of the bikers, and they had been in a relationship of sorts, but they aren’t so much right now. But they are all attracted to each other. Part of the reason I like this one is that we get to see a main character who has something called Klinefelter syndrome, which gives him XXY instead of XY. He’s not trans, but he does have certain issues that go with it, and we get to see the effects of his disorder on his sex life.

Susan Hawke-Rules to Ignore

This is the 7th and last book in Susi’s Davey’s Rules series, and it’s Davey’s story. We kept waiting for this one to come out and it was well worth the wait. The whole series is a Daddy series, and the rules part comes from the rules that Davey sets for his Daddy. I think by the end of book 6, there are 90 some rules. Then we get to Davey’s book, and everything changes. We get to see Davey learning a lot more about himself than he had in the past, in a good way. We also get to see a non-traditional Daddy/boy relationship, and one that is pretty awesome.

OK, that’s my top MM books of last year. Stay tuned for the next list. I think it might be motorcycle club books.

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Felicity Brandon-His Dark Intentions

OK, we’re talking about the second book in Felicity’s Gates of Fortorus series, His Dark Intentions. This is the middle book of the trilogy and it is a cliffhanger because Felicity is mean. So mean. There may be spoilers for the first book in this review. We all know that I try hard not to leave spoilers, but sometimes it isn’t possible to do.

So, we left Caroline with Harper. He is using her for all her talents and charms. And now they are winging their way to London so that Harper can give the speech that Caroline wrote for him in front of the President and the rest of his cronies. And of course, he wants Caroline to be there with him. He can’t leave her alone. He’s pretty obsessed with her, and he wants to have his wicked and dark way with her whenever and wherever. So, she comes with him.

They make it to the office where the President is as well as all his other men. The president wants to play with Caroline, but Harper makes it quite obvious that she is his and no one else is going to touch her. After he gives the speech, the men talk about other things, but since no women, or whores, are allowed, Harper locks Caroline in a cage in a secret room, with three other women. That gives Caroline a chance to talk to some other women and gives her a little time to think and worry about what will happen when the men come back to get them. Harper says that no one will touch her, but she saw how the president looked at her. And her instincts are really good right now.

OK. I really feel Caroline’s confusion and turmoil. She likes what Harper is doing to her, even as it makes her feel ashamed and humiliated. Humiliation play is a thing. She feels the connection that she and Harper have. But, on the other hand, Harper is the Commander General of Fortorus, where 32k women are being kept in terrible conditions, raped, beaten, and dying. He’s in the inner circle of the man who has orchestrated all of this and who has even more plans in his head. There are terrible things going on to women in general, they are being silenced and owned, and Harper is part of that. So she feels angry about that. She keeps pushing everything down. She knows that being with Harper, no matter what’s happening, is better than being a general prisoner at Fortorus. And she wants to escape, so this puts her in a good place to do that.

Felicity writes these amazing male characters that you either want to love or hate or both at the same time. That’s how I feel about Harper. Well, I’m not sure that I want to love him at the moment. I know that I want to hate him. There are times when I can almost see him improving and something breaking through, but then it disappears and I’m back to straight up hate. But I like hating him, if you get what I mean. He’s magnetic, and I can’t wait to see what’s going to happen next with him.

With the ending that Felicity gave us, I can’t wait to see what the next book is going to bring us. I know that it’s going to be be good, and I will be on edge the whole time I read it.

Nothing under the picture today. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Claire Marta & Nia Farrell-Sam

This is the 6th book in Claire and Nia’s Guarded Heart series. Sam is a slight aberration from the other books because it doesn’t follow the MFM layout that the majority of the other books do. This one is MMMF. We have our two gargoyles, Gael and Elijah, our heroine, Sam, but we have a surprise new male. So let’s get into the gig, shall we? Warning, there will be some spoilers, I’ll try to avoid them, but…

Gael, poor Gael, is suffering. He hears the song that was written for him by Etienne. He hears it al the damn time. He can’t get away from it. He’s in a very black state right now, and it’s not getting any better. The more that Etienne is thwarted, the worse it gets for Gael. He’s still holding off from his partner, Elijah. Elijah keeps trying to break through to Gael, for several reasons, but Gael keeps fighting. He barely talks to Elijah, instead staying locked him his room or hidding in the kitchen. He also is nasty to Elijah as often as possible. The only way that Gael can drown out the music he hears is to self-harm.

Elijah is suffering too. He’s not suffering in the same way Gael is, but it’s suffering all the same. He wants to have a connection with his partner. He is very attracted to his partner, so he’d like them to be partners in all kinds of ways, and he’s pretty sure that Gael is attracted to him too, since there was some serious kissing go on at one point. But now, Gael is determined to push him away, and it only gets worse. Elijah feels heartbroken too, because he wants to have that connection, and he feels so isolated from everything and everyone, and he really wants his partner and their mate.

Meanwhile, we have Sam, who is a psychic medium with a ghostly grandmother who likes to pinch the asses of hot guys and who watches Magic Mike on the regular. She also trains dogs, and works with her dog as a search and rescue team. And oh, she can talk to animals. Prince, Willow’s crazy Irish wolfhound puppy, needs some training, so Tobias assigns Gael and Elijah to take the dog to her for training. When Sam manages to work a miracle at the Citadel, everyone decides that they will go down to a local bar and celebrate.

Father James, who was a Catholic priest and who is now an activist and counselor in the area, is also at the bar. He’s bi, and sees Elijah. He and Elijah go to the back and have a significant moment together. When they come back out, there’s a huge fight, and a couple of the gargoyles get hurt. And when the dust clears, it turns out Gael is gone on top of Elijah being hurt.

I knew that this one was going to be a tough read. Not because it’s a hard book or anything, but because it was Gael’s story, and I knew, from what we’ve been able to get from the previous books about his history and from what we’ve seen of Etienne’s behavior, that whatever was going to happen to Gael or anyone involved with Gael would be brutal and possibly worse than anything anyone else went through. And I wasn’t necessarily wrong. I think that some of the stuff that happened to the ladies might’ve been worse, but what happened to Gael is pretty damn horrific, and what happens to Elijah is terrible.

I like Gael, so much. I also hurt for him, again, so much. Even without anything that Etienne may or may not be doing to him, he’s so damaged from the fire at Notre Dame, not just physically, but mentally. He has some serious PTSD and survivor’s guilt going on, and he needs some help to heal with that, more help than James, Sam, and Elijah can give him.

One thing that I really liked about James and Sam is that they are willing to stand up to Tobias and basically tell him to fuck off, only nicer. The reason that they do that is one of the things that has really annoyed me in each book, and that’s all the things that happen to the mates without telling them these things could happen. I understand the reasoning of the gargoyles for doing things the way that they do, but I think that they have seen, time and again, that it isn’t the best way to handle things.

I love Sam’s Grandma. She’s a fucking hoot. I mean, she gets drunk on the crystals at the Citadel. She pinches the asses of all the guys. She may spy on their showers. And oh yeah, she gets frisky with Andre.

I can’t wait for Tobias’ book.

OK, Etienne keeps talking about his spies. I didn’t think that Gael was the way that he was finding out information, but it looks like he was getting some that way. But there are more eyes. Does he mean the ravens or are there more? I can’t wait to find out.

OK, that’s all for this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Top Dark Reads of 2020 pt. 2

OK, we’re back for part 2 of my top dark reads of 2020. Keep in mind, these are in no particular order, and just because something doesn’t get mentioned doesn’t mean that I didn’t think it was dark, it’s just that these are the ones that really stuck with me. (You should see how many GR, Zon, and WordPress tabs I currently have open, lol)

Natalie Bennett-Periculum

Natalie Bennett tends to write dark, twisted, and fucked up, and this one is no different. I don’t know why I didn’t look up the definition of periculum back when I wrote my blog post, but I did today, for shits and giggles. It means danger or risk, and that totally fits for this book. Anyway, this book stars Lana and her friends, as well as Ciaran and his friends. There’s an accident, there’s some strange and terrible things, and there’s lots of darkness and twists, so, yeah, Natalie Bennett. This is the first book of a duet, and the next one comes out in March. I can’t wait for it.

Addison Cain-Swallow It Down

You didn’t think I was going to create a dark list without an Addison Cain book, did you? Yeah, that will likely never happen. Swallow It Down is another near future, post-apocalyptic, dystopian story. Yes, I have a type. LOL. This takes place 6 years after the bombs have dropped, and what’s left of humanity is huddling around each other in small places, trying to survive. Except for Eugenia. She’s trying to get to this one specific place she heard about. She heard it was safe. But then she runs into this huge ship, and well, things change. Even months after reading it, I’m still wondering about certain things.

Kitty Thomas-The Game Maker

Kitty is one of the OGs when it comes to dark romance. And she will fuck your brain over with nary a blink. She has created some of my favorite male characters, and one of the best mindfuck books ever. Go check out Comfort Food. But today we’re talking about The Game Maker. Now, knowing that it is a Kitty Thomas book, and it’s got a title like it does, you might think that there are some mindfucks and twists around the corner, and you would be right. I never knew what was going to happen with this one.

Loxley Savage-Feathers and Fire

Feathers and Fire is a 3 book series. It’s a MFMM, RH, PNR. (My husband laughs at all the acronyms in Romancelandia) The books in the series are Bound for Blood, Cursed to Crave, and Freed By Flames. The story is about Trinity, who has spent her life as a slave. As a child, she had frequent blood draws. As an adult, she’s a sex slave in high demand, mostly because, as a 1/2 succubus, 1/2 phoenix, she can take a lot of abuse and heal quickly. Trinity goes through hell through all 3 books, but she becomes who she is and who she should be by the end of book 3. Books 1 & 2 end in cliffies, but the whole series is out, so you can go read it all back to back. Which is what I did. And I was just like WTF through a lot of it, in a good way. It is dark, it is dirty, gritty, and wow.

Alright, there we are. My Top Dark Reads of 2020. Go check them all out!

Top Dark Reads of 2020 pt 1

Happy New Year’s Eve! It’s 7.5 hours until 2020 ends where I’m at, and I’m wondering what other things it can shove into those last few hours. Hopefully nothing, but you know what this year has been like. But, let’s forget about that for a while and focus on the 810 books I’ve read this year. Today’s post is the first part of the darkest reads I’ve read this year. Some of them I put on my blog, some were just pleasure reads, so let’s get started, shall we? Now, remember, these are in no particular order.

Felicity Brandon-Her Dark Protector

This is the first book in Felicity’s Gates of Fortorus series. (my post) The second book has just come out, and it will be on the blog in the next couple of days. This is a dark, dystopian, near future story. It is really gritty, dark, and dirty. It’s the story of Caroline, an author who was taken into Fortorus, along with thousands of other British women. They are mistreated and tortured, and it’s just not good. But the book was great. Definitely go check this one out.

Emma Jaye-Pied Piper

This is an MM book. It’s part of the Grim and Sinister Delights book, which is a multi-author PNR series. It isn’t a shared world so much as it’s a shared theme series, around fairy tales. In this book, we have a male siren and a wolf shifter. Domino is the siren, and as a male siren, his family wants to fuck him, get bred by him, and then kill him so that they can get the magic from his bits and pieces. As you might guess, Domino isn’t down with that, so he’s run. Jude is a bounty hunter who is on the search for Domino. When they meet, everything starts to get cloudy. There are some really intense scenes in this book, and I honestly didn’t know what was going to happen sometimes.

Raven Dark & Olivia Alexander-Devil’s Outlaw MC

So far, this is only a 2 book series, and the ends are cliffies. I know that book 3 is in the works, but apparently, Spider is an asshole with his authors too. I follow Raven so that I know when things drop. The first book is Evil’s Price, and the second is Evil’s Pawn. The premise of the series is that Emma, who is escaping from a religious cult, has ended up working as a waitress at a strip club owned by the Devil’s Outlaw MC. She ends up stealing from the club, and Spider, as the Sgt-at-arms, is tasked with dealing with her. Let’s just say that Spider’s way of dealing with her issn’t all that nice. When I say that he is an asshole, I’m being generous. I hate him. I also am oddly fascinated by him. When the 2nd book came out, I literally put the book I was reading on hold until I read Pawn. And I read it until late into the night.

Adara Wolf-False Feathers

False Feathers is part of the Grim and Sinister Delights books. This one is based on the Goose Girl. It starts with Aiden, whose mother has arranged a marriage for him. Not just a marriage, but one to a fae prince. She sends him off with a servant, and well, bad things happen. Adara Wolf writes a lot of dark, dub/non con MM, and her books are always intense and always stay with me. This one was no different.

OK, that’s all for this one. Check in tomorrow for part 2 of my Top Dark Reads of 2020!

Felicity Brandon-Her Dark Protector

OK, you might have noticed that I like dark, dystopian stories. There’s just something about the dark, grittiness of it all. One of my favorite stories in that genre is The Handmaid’s Tale. Spoiler, it’s also one of the scariest stories I’ve ever read, hands down. So, when I read the blurb for Felicity’s Her Dark Protector, I was really fucking excited. It sounded really awesome. And I was not wrong. And it does give me the same kind of feel that Handmaid does. It’s not that Felicity copied it or anything, but it’s the same vibe, and I think that’s great.

So, we are in near future England. In September, 2024, something called the Edict was passed. The Edict basically turned all the female citizens of the UK into non-citizens. And even more, it basically turned them into property. Women lost all their credentials, jobs, everything. Women have been pulled away from their families, husbands, children. Some women have even been killed. It’s not good. Not good at all. Many, many women have ended up in Fortorus, which means for the brave. But what it really should mean is hell. Because that is what it is. This is the story of Caroline, who is one of the women who was taken to Fortorus.

Caroline was a novelist before E-day. Now she’s just one of the women who live in Gamma block of Forotorus. They are supervised by a man named Mitchell, who is just disgusting. He calls them whores and treats them terribly. The women sleep on filthy mattresses, don’t have enough clothing, don’t have enough food, aren’t able to shower, aren’t warm enough, have to stand outside daily in all kinds of weather, and get physically disciplined. And oh, the women also have to deal with whatever Mitchell wants to do to them, and it ain’t pretty. All in all, the women aren’t really living, they are existing, and just barely at that.

Fern, who is another woman in Gamma, has become Caroline’s friend. One morning, Mitchell decides that Fern is the victim of the day. He drags her away to his office. Then later, when the women are all standing in parade outside, waiting for the Commander General to show up, not that he ever does, Fern gets dragged outside, and then put up on the whipping pole, where she gets whipped 6 times. This isn’t, you know, a consensual kind of whipping. It’s a “I hate you and am going to do everything I can to hurt and damage you” kind of whipping. And that’s what happened. Then they leave her hanging there. Eventually, she gets brought back into the building where they live, but Fern has to spend the rest of the day working, with wide open wounds on her back. After dark, Caroline volunteers to go to another building, all the way across the compound, to hopefully get some first aid cream that can help Fern. The worry is that she’ll get caught, and that will be epically bad.

And of course, you can guess what happens. Because it would probably be a really short book if Caroline doesn’t get caught out of bounds. She does, and things happen.

Caroline is such a fascinating character, and I think that she is a very realistic one. She is very much fighting with herself over what she thinks she should do, what she can do, and what she will do. I think that’s a position we would all be in, and we can’t say what we would do in her situation. I mean, there’s just no way to predict what anyone is going to do at any point. I would like to say that I would smash the shit out of Mitchell when he came to take Fern if I were Caroline, but, you know, I can’t say I would, especially since I would be so outmanned, outgunned, and outplanned, boom. (Sorry, I’ve watched Hamilton like 3 times this week.) But, as much as Caroline wants to protect her friends and get her own back, self-preservation is a thing to. It’s your brain’s instinct to protect yourself, which means you actually have to fight against your own instincts in order to put yourself at risk. And, in Caroline’s place, fighting Mitchell would end up doing nothing, really, because Fern would still get dragged away and hurt, and may even have gotten hurt worse. And Caroline would’ve gotten hurt, just as badly.

So, is Caroline doing the right thing by standing by and taking care of Fern when she gets back, or should she be fighting, or what? What even is the right thing here? This is what makes the story for me, that struggle that takes place within Caroline. Don’t get me wrong, all the external struggle that happens is great, and there’s some seriously sexy stuff that happens, but it’s all that internal struggle that Caroline has that really drives it for me. And honestly? I don’t think that is an answer as to what the right thing to do is. I sure as hell don’t know one.

I’m really looking forward to the next one. I have so many questions that I want answers to.

Nothing below the pic today. Go check this one out! Happy reading!

Britney King-Savage Row

Oh, holy fuck guys. This book was infuckingtense. I mean, it left me on the edge of my seat and damn. Savage Row was the first one of Britney King’s books I’ve read, but it won’t be the last. (Check my GR review here) I want to be careful about what to put here, because it’s a psychological thriller.

Here’s the basics though. Back in the day, Amy was a juror in a trial for Jack Mooney. He neded up getting sent to prison for 20 years. Sadly, he got out early, and he’s now shown up in Amy’s town, targeting her, her husband, and their two girls. Amy is left trying to figure out what to do and what is going on.

Like I said, this is intense and it is a thriller. It left me on the edge of my seat. I didn’t want to put it down, and I did need to know what is coming next. There are a lot of moving parts in here, and sometimes the parts would get sneaky and come up behind me and remind me that they were there. And for all the moving parts, it was a smooth read, it could be easy to get lost with everything that was going on, and Britney kept everything moving and clear quite well.

That’s all for this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!