Kay Elle Parker-Cry For Me

It’s been a while since we’ve had a Kay book, so I’m quite happy to have her newest here today. Cry For Me is the second book about the Avalon club. We have Anarchy, and yes, that’s her real name, AKA Archie, a sub we met in the last book, and Master Jasper, who we also obviously met in the last book, because well, there has only been one so far, lol. As a quick reminder, at a very bad time during the last book, Archie was there for the Doms of Avalon, and rested right at Jasper’s knee. Now, we’re about 9 months out from the end of the last book.

Archie is pretty much madly in love with Master Jasper. She spends her nights at Avalon, doing her very best to be the most perfect sub ever. She follows Jasper around, watches his scenes, serves him, and hopes that he will see how perfect her submission to him is. So far, it hasn’t worked. In fact, it is so far from working that Jasper has now decided that he’s going to find her a Dom, someone who will actually see her, cherish her, and take care of her. And that’s not him. So, he talks to his friend Master Atticus to see if he will. Atticus says he’ll take care of Archie but that Jasper is a fool.

All seems to be going well, right up until Jasper tells Archie and Atticus decides to scene with her. Jasper has to leave and Archie safe words.

See, Jasper’s problem is that he’s a sadist, and he doesn’t want to hurt Anarchy. She is just too innocent for him, and he knows that as a sadist, it is too easy for him to hurt her, because he has to stay under control. So, he leaves her to Atticus, and in fact, leaves altogether for a couple of weeks, during which Archie absolutely breaks down.

OK, so, Jasper’s sadism isn’t just a kink. It’s more like a fetish. He cannot get aroused without causing someone pain. His father, curses on his name, is a terrible person, a really, really, really terrible person, and he did things to Jasper which closely tied sadism to Jasper’s soul. He likes to play really hard. And he’s good at it. And he doesn’t think that Archie can stand it, but he’s never asked her, which was his first mistake.

I like Jasper. He’s pretty seriously fucked up. Like I said, his parents are monsters. But, he’s worked really hard to get past that. He’s done everything he can to walk away from his parents and their teaching. Instead of being the perfect assassin they wanted, he’s now a landscaper. He’s funneled his sadistic needs into the world of kink, and he treats the subs he plays with really well. He has friends, close friends, and he has his found family. All in all, he’s really just a good guy. Stupid sometimes and I really wanted punch him in his left testicle several times, but that’s what makes a good character, I think. A good character makes you feel things, and Jasper made me feel.

Archie really is a joy and delight. People think that she’s this perfect submissive subbie girl, but she’s really not. I mean, yeah, she is a subbie girl, but she’s smart, sassy, sarcastic, and strong. It’s a surprise to her friends, at least some of them, I think, to find out the real her. She doesn’t like confrontation or attention all that much, but there are times when she is more than willing to stand up for the things that are important. There’s one point where her friend needs her, and Archie stands up to everyone until the world is arranged in the way that she wants it. And not just everyone, but some D-types too. I really liked that. I think that Jasper should’ve talked to her much sooner than he did, but like I said, he’s stupid sometimes.

We didn’t see much of Alicia in this book, but I’m pretty sure that I don’t like her very much. I mean, yeah, she has a shitty background too, but I think that she needs to start coming out of her shell. I have a feeling that she’s maybe hurting Connie in some way, I can’t be having that.

I am worried about Connie. She seems so tired. I hope that we get to see her being happy in the next book, because I really like her.

Ok, that’s all for this one. Go check it out. Happy reading!

Claire Marta & Nia Farrell-Sam

This is the 6th book in Claire and Nia’s Guarded Heart series. Sam is a slight aberration from the other books because it doesn’t follow the MFM layout that the majority of the other books do. This one is MMMF. We have our two gargoyles, Gael and Elijah, our heroine, Sam, but we have a surprise new male. So let’s get into the gig, shall we? Warning, there will be some spoilers, I’ll try to avoid them, but…

Gael, poor Gael, is suffering. He hears the song that was written for him by Etienne. He hears it al the damn time. He can’t get away from it. He’s in a very black state right now, and it’s not getting any better. The more that Etienne is thwarted, the worse it gets for Gael. He’s still holding off from his partner, Elijah. Elijah keeps trying to break through to Gael, for several reasons, but Gael keeps fighting. He barely talks to Elijah, instead staying locked him his room or hidding in the kitchen. He also is nasty to Elijah as often as possible. The only way that Gael can drown out the music he hears is to self-harm.

Elijah is suffering too. He’s not suffering in the same way Gael is, but it’s suffering all the same. He wants to have a connection with his partner. He is very attracted to his partner, so he’d like them to be partners in all kinds of ways, and he’s pretty sure that Gael is attracted to him too, since there was some serious kissing go on at one point. But now, Gael is determined to push him away, and it only gets worse. Elijah feels heartbroken too, because he wants to have that connection, and he feels so isolated from everything and everyone, and he really wants his partner and their mate.

Meanwhile, we have Sam, who is a psychic medium with a ghostly grandmother who likes to pinch the asses of hot guys and who watches Magic Mike on the regular. She also trains dogs, and works with her dog as a search and rescue team. And oh, she can talk to animals. Prince, Willow’s crazy Irish wolfhound puppy, needs some training, so Tobias assigns Gael and Elijah to take the dog to her for training. When Sam manages to work a miracle at the Citadel, everyone decides that they will go down to a local bar and celebrate.

Father James, who was a Catholic priest and who is now an activist and counselor in the area, is also at the bar. He’s bi, and sees Elijah. He and Elijah go to the back and have a significant moment together. When they come back out, there’s a huge fight, and a couple of the gargoyles get hurt. And when the dust clears, it turns out Gael is gone on top of Elijah being hurt.

I knew that this one was going to be a tough read. Not because it’s a hard book or anything, but because it was Gael’s story, and I knew, from what we’ve been able to get from the previous books about his history and from what we’ve seen of Etienne’s behavior, that whatever was going to happen to Gael or anyone involved with Gael would be brutal and possibly worse than anything anyone else went through. And I wasn’t necessarily wrong. I think that some of the stuff that happened to the ladies might’ve been worse, but what happened to Gael is pretty damn horrific, and what happens to Elijah is terrible.

I like Gael, so much. I also hurt for him, again, so much. Even without anything that Etienne may or may not be doing to him, he’s so damaged from the fire at Notre Dame, not just physically, but mentally. He has some serious PTSD and survivor’s guilt going on, and he needs some help to heal with that, more help than James, Sam, and Elijah can give him.

One thing that I really liked about James and Sam is that they are willing to stand up to Tobias and basically tell him to fuck off, only nicer. The reason that they do that is one of the things that has really annoyed me in each book, and that’s all the things that happen to the mates without telling them these things could happen. I understand the reasoning of the gargoyles for doing things the way that they do, but I think that they have seen, time and again, that it isn’t the best way to handle things.

I love Sam’s Grandma. She’s a fucking hoot. I mean, she gets drunk on the crystals at the Citadel. She pinches the asses of all the guys. She may spy on their showers. And oh yeah, she gets frisky with Andre.

I can’t wait for Tobias’ book.

OK, Etienne keeps talking about his spies. I didn’t think that Gael was the way that he was finding out information, but it looks like he was getting some that way. But there are more eyes. Does he mean the ravens or are there more? I can’t wait to find out.

OK, that’s all for this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Livia Grant-Expecting It All

First of all, I need to say that I am starting this at 4:45 PM Eastern time, and the Sun has already been done for nearly an hour where I am. I was really tired already, and now my body thinks it’s bedtime. This has nothing to do with the story, I’m just whining. And yawning. A lot. Anyway.

So, now that that’s out of the way, let’s talk about Livia’s newest book, Expecting It All. This is the latest book from the Passion Pit series, and is the first one that is a standalone. It’s a couple we’ve already seen and gotten to know, Derek and Rachel. He’s a Daddy and she’s his baby girl. They had been basically a 24/7 couple, but she was pregnant in the last book, and this one is all about that.

So, we start with a 8 month pregnant Rachel leaving a cab so that she can go to the Pit. She hasn’t been there in a while, and Master Derek has taken over doing the shows. Rachel is a little bit worried because she’s pretty sure their marriage is imploding. She and Derek are drifting apart, and it has been a while since any happy sexy fun time have happened, so she’s headed to the Pit to see what’s going on and to see if they can get things back to normal. But when she gets there and sees what’s happening, she ends up with a panic attack.

Derek finds out that Rachel is there and that she’s having a panic attack, and he rushes out to take care of her. Then he takes her home, and they have a talk. And it’s an actual talk, not a euphimism for a spanking. Of course, spankings do happen. Rachel and Derek both talk about what’s going on in their relationship and their fears and worries about it.

You know, so often when we read romance books we see the buildup of the relationship and the end of the story is their HEA, when they get together. But really, that’s the start of their HEA, we just normally don’t get to see all the ever after bits. I mean, yeah, we may get an epilogue that shows a glimpse into what’s happening, or we may see them as secondary or tertiary characters in someone else’s book. But with Rachel and Derek, we know that they got their HEA, so now we get to see the actually EA of the HEA. What I like about this is that it’s not something we see often, so when we do get to see this, I really appreciate it.

Rachel and Derek are at a big change in their relationship. Having a baby is going to drastically change any relationship, no matter what. And that’s if you are vanilla or kinky. I think that adding in a kink would make it even harder, especially one in which Mama is also a baby, like Rachel, and one where you are pretty much 24/7. That’s just a lot of change, period.

I really like that we get to see both Rachel and Derek evolve alone and together. They each grow and change as people. Then their relationship grows and changes. To me, it feels so real. I mean, this is stuff that we all go through when we are in a relationship or even when we aren’t. We all grow and change and as each of us change, our relationships change, no matter what kind of relationship it is. Even you don’t relate to the kink part of Derek and Rachel’s relationship, you can relate to the worries and concerns about how changes are going to affect their relationship and the work that it takes to keep that relationship strong and happy. So, massive kudoes to Livia for that.

OK, nothing below the pic today. Go check this one out! Happy reading!

Kay Elle Parker-The Vampire’s Captive

Kay Elle Parker takes us back into the Midnight Doms world that Lee Savino and Renee Rose created. Today, we’re going to be The Vampire’s Captive, and I wanna know where I can sign up for Colt, I mean, I wouldn’t mind overly much being his captive.

So, we’re in Arizona. Vienna is stuck on the side of the road, in short shorts, a tank top, and flip flops. This normally wouldn’t be a horrible thing in Arizona, but the problem is she’s stuck on the side of the road, 18 miles away from anything. Her tire blew, so she pulled over to the side of the road to fix it. While she was struggling, some lovely people pulled over on the side of the road to help her. And oh, to steal her car, with absolutely everything in it, including her phone, her purse, and all her money. None of the trucks or cars that are driving by stop for her, so she manages to hike herself to a rest area, where she is able to find some boulders with ledges to sit on. While she is hiding herself away there, she hears several cars pull up and a bunch of guys get out and start talking about mobile blood units. Vienna tries so hard to be quiet, but she does let loose with one little gasp.

Colt is meeting with a Russian and another vampire to talk about getting some golden blood humans through. Golden blood people are those who are Rh null. (this is a real thing, and there are legit something like only 40 people in the world have it. I think there are only like 10 people worldwide who are donors.) Anyway, in this world, people with golden blood taste like all the best things in the world combined. So, Colt and his evil associates are breeding and selling golden bloods. Colt lets everyone leave and and pretends to leave, but he comes back to see if he could find the person who gasped. That’s when he found Vienna, who he grabbed and then shoved in his trunk.

OK, this is one of the best parts. Vienna is claustrophobic. That’s not the best thing. The best thing is that after she freaks out, her brain kicks in, and she figures out that she can get the tire iron out of the compartment. So she does. And she smacks the shit out of Colt when he pulls her out of the trunk. That is the best thing. Or at least one of the best things. Superhero Vienna is also the best thing.

I love Vienna. I mean, just absolutely love her. She is strong, fierce, and she will definitely kick your ass, especially if she has steel toed boots. She’s like one of those little cute purse dogs who doesn’t realize how small she is, with a huge dog attitude, and really, she has the badassness to back up the attitude. I kinda want to be her. I think that she and Selene will get along quite well, and they might end up running the world if you let them loose.

I like Colt. He is a very good man. He’s also sneaky and tricksy and determined. He does what he has to so that he can do what is expected of him by those he’s working with. I think that he’s got enough of the Domliness to handle Vienna, but is willing to let her be Vienna, if you know what I mean.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to go get some stompy boots with steel toes.

I have to admit, I really disliked Lucius at times, I mean to the point of introducing him to the sun at parts of this book. I understand his points, but I am still really mad at him.

OK, that’s all for this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Livia Grant-Defending It All

The 5th book of the Punishment Pit series is here, and in Defending It All, we don’t just get all the kinkery fuckery we’ve been getting in the other books, we also get to see what’s going on with Jake. Boooooo hisssss. We also get a peek at what may end up being a new couple, and it’s going to be interesting, I think.

Markus and Briana are settling into their new routine and adjusting their marriage to their new dynamic, including having a dungeon set up in the basement. Hey, when you’re married to a pain slut, having a home dungeon with all the fun stuff that a pain slut could possibly love to hate and hate to love. Things are starting to settle into something they both like. Markus, though, isn’t as happy as you might thing, being a Domly type with a masochistic sub. You’d think he’d just be thrilled to no end, and he is really, when it comes to Bri, but Jake is still wandering around and after what he did to Bri, Markus wants him to pay amd pay big time. So, he talks to Lukus, who also runs security company, about finding Jake and doing something about him.

Lukus and Tiffany are settling into their relationship. Lukus is going really slow introducing her to the full amount of kinkery fuckery that he’d like to be in, but she has agreed to be in a D/s relationship with him. She still has to step in and question him a lot, but she’s getting better. They are doing really well, and they have admitted to each other that they love one another. But, Tiff is still having nightmares because of Jake, so Lukus is motivated to go find Jake too.

Our new couple appears to be Dylan and Hannah. We don’t know much about either one of them yet, but I hope we’ll see more of them. I think I could like Dylan.

We get to know more about Tiffany’s family in this one. I have to say that I really don’t like most of them, other than her mother and maybe her younger brother, Mateo. Everyone else can go suck rocks. Especially Aiden. He’s just ugh. I mean, I get that they love her and all that, but she’s a 27 year old woman, and is an adult.

I do think that Lukus and Markus are doing a good thing to try and track down Jake, but I think that they shouldn’t keep the ladies out of the loop. I mean, hell, if anyone deserves to be in the loop, it’s totally Briana. We’ll have to keep our eyes out for what is going to happen. One more book, that’s all we have left, and it will be out soon!

Nothing under the pic tonight. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Kay Elle Parker-Black Light: Branded

Kay Elle has carried over a story from the latest Black Light Roulette in Branded. We first met Ava and Master Finnegan back in February, where, among other things, Ava ended up getting fisted. Now, we get the rest of the story. (and yes, I hear Paul Harvey’s voice in my head when I say that. And yes, I know I just totally dated myself, so what, I’m old.)

I don’t normally give content warnings, but I will on this one. There is a lot of talk about cutting and self-harm. If this is something that you have had issues with, please take that under consideration. Read safely and responsibly.

At the end of their night at Black Light East, Finn takes Ava back to his hotel. His plan is for them to spend several hours together, talking, eating, getting to know each other, before he had to fly back out to Montana and back to his ranch. Well, that’s not precisely what happened. Well, they got to know each other much better, Biblically, at least. Bow chicka, bow wow. Finn tells Ava that he really wants her to come to his ranch with him, but he’ll be back in 2 weeks to get her, if she wants to come with him. He wants to make sure that she’s spent plenty of time thinking her decision over.

Fast forward a few weeks, and Ava is now in Montana, learning how to be a rancher. Finn’s ranch is huge, 80k acres, 20k head of cattle, all kind of things going on. She promised him that she would stay within sight of the house, keep her phone with her, and stay out of the pastures unless she has someone with her. Right now, she’s sitting in her favorite spot, where she should be enjoying the beautiful scenery, but her brain is busy. You see, Ava had a very… difficult childhood. Now, she has her father in her brain all the time, and when she is scared, worried, stressed, things seem to be going wrong, so on and so forth, she hears his voice saying horrible things. The only thing that has made her survive that is that she cuts. She promised Finn that she would try to not cut, but right now the voices are so, so, so, so loud that she just jumps on her horse and takes off.

Meanwhile, Finn is trying to run his mega huge ranch and be Ava’s significant other and be her Dom, and try to make his life work the way that he wants it to. It’s his busy season too, all the cows are calfing, which means he needs to be on top of things. Then he calls Ava to see if she got his message about dinner and an early bedtime. When she doesn’t answer, he starts to worry. When she still doesn’t answer, he has to go figure out where she is, and well, things don’t go well.

OK, I like Ava. I’ve been Ava. I am a recovering cutter, and I can really relate to her when she wants to cut and the fight to not do it. I think that Ava does really well at fighting things off as long as she does. She has a lovely heart and she really cares a lot about Finn, the ranch, the horses, and the cows. She wants to be better. There’s one scene, with a baby cow, that I’m just so impressed with her strength and fierceness. It shows that she’s not weak, even if her brain tells her that she is. Here’s the thing about mental illness, it lies. It wiggles into your brain and finds the cracks and lies to you. Lies. LIES. But the lies sound so convincing. It’s hard to beat them.

I like Finn. He’s a really stand up guy. He wants to do the best by all the people in his life and he wants to make sure that all the animals on his ranch are cared for. He does really well with Ava and trying to figure out what he can do to help her. I really like that he realises that he can’t handle everything on his own and that he needs to do some things differently.

I want to give Kay major props for handling the self-harm issues in this book the way that she does. She doesn’t glamorise it or make it look cool. It’s not an easy line to walk, and she did it so well.

UGH on Thomas. Kill him by fire. I thought that he might’ve had inside help from someone else, but I guess not.

Lulu is super cute.

OK, that’s all for this one! Go read it! Happy reading!

Livia Grant-Balancing It All

We’re at the 4th book in the Punishment Pit books with Balancing It All. We’re in the back 9, and we’re building up to all kinds of interesting things. I can’t wait until we get to those things. Again, remember, these books are cliffhangers and when I talk about the book it will spoil the previous book. If you are waiting for all the books to come out to read them, you might want to skip this post and wait for the books to come out. Livia is getting them out quickly, so you won’t have a long wait.

So, we have Tiffany and Lukus starting a relationship and Markus and Briana putting their relationship back together. I’m going to put Markus and Bri on hold for a little bit, and talk about Tiff and Lukus, mostly because we focus more on them in this book.

Tiffany has spent all her dating life up until now in vanilla relationships, and while she has kinky fantasies, she’s been dealing with Jake’s shit for as long as Bri has. Not that Jake hurt her, he just mindfucked her, and not, you know, in a fun way. So, now trying to come up with some kind of D/s relationship with Lukus isn’t easy. She’s slightly scared about everything, and while she’s willing to trust Lukus, she has issues with doing things like looking at contracts.

Then we have Lukus, who has spent his dating life in kinky relationships. Well, being kinky. He’s the Master’s Master, and doesn’t do relationships, and boy howdy, is it obvious. He has his issues, mostly with the fact that he’s dealing with a total newbie, who for all her reading and fantasies, has never been in a real D/s relationship, and up until now, the closest she’s come to it is being a witness to Jake abusing Briana.

Neither one of them are really having it easy here. Tiffany is trying to deal with her brain saying one thing, her heart saying something else, and her body saying a complete third thing. Her heart and her body want to team up, but her brain isn’t quite onboard. Her brain is mostly there, but she overthinks and fights with herself. She’s at the point where she’s finding out what she likes, but there’s a part of her brain that tells her that she’s a freak for liking it. It’s a hard place for her to be. And that makes her feel kind of insecure, I think too. I don’t think it’s a purposeful kind of thing, but there’s something that niggles at her.

Lukus is having his issues with being in a relationship too. Like he’s trying to figure out how to turn off his entire Domly persona. His Dom-ness sometimes wants to be in charge of EVERYTHING, but that’s not the kind of relationship he’s in with Tiffany, and that’s not who Tiffany is, and that’s not what he wants. But it’s his default, so when things go wrong, that’s where he goes. There is one point where it made me really mad at him, because he was jumping when he shouldn’t have. Thank goodness for Derek.

OK, nothing under the again, but I do have one point. There are some piercings that take place in this, and the piercer uses a piercing gun, which wouldn’t happen. Piercing guns tend to cause more trauma to the area than using needles. That’s not a dealbreaker for the book, it’s just a point that I wanted to say something about, as a person who has multiple piercings, including some in interesting places.

Go check the book out! Happy reading!

Livia Grant-Having It All

Having It All is the 3rd book in Livia’s Punishment Pit series. Now, remember, these books are cliffhangers, but the following book comes out pretty quickly, so you aren’t going to have to wait too long to see what’s going to happen. We’re now on the home stretch, with the 2nd half of the series to come.

The first 2 books focused on Brianna and Markus, with Lukus around and some shots of Tiffany. This book focuses more on Lukus and Tiffany, with some side shots of Brianna and Markus. I’m glad that we don’t lose them altogether, since they were the original reason we got the books. I would hate to not see them. Altogether, though we’re in the 3rd book, and there has been so much action, it’s only been about a week from the 1st book to the end of the 3rd book.

Now, remember, these are all cliffhangers, and each book picks up immediately where the last one left off, so there are going to be spoilers for previous books. So, if you haven’t read the previous books and you don’t want to be spoiled, turn back now. Otherwise, you have been warned, and you have no one to blame but yourself.

So, we pick up after Brianna’s punishment with Markus. They are talking things out and figuring out the things that went wrong and what they can do to make things better.

Then we have Tiffany and Lukus. They are trying to figure out their own things right now. They are both attracted to each other, but there are concerns. On Tiffany’s part, she’s basically a BDSM newbie. For all that she’s read and watched, she’s never experienced. And she had to watch Brianna go through Jake’s torture, which had to really color her expectations and ideas. On Lukus’ part, he knows who he is and what he likes, and he’s nowhere near a newbie when it comes to BDSM. I mean, he owns a kink club. And he’s not a huge relationship guy, so having relationship feelings for Tiffany is new for him. And, to top it all off, she kicks his ass at basketball. Like he’s standing still, with his feet nailed to the floor. I don’t know why that just tickles me, but it really does, to no end.

I really like Tiffany. She’s sassy, fiesty, opiniated, loyal, strong, and loving. She has stood by her friend, Brianna, for years, and has been there to help put her together after everything that happened. She has been strong for Brianna, and in turn, Brianna has been strong for her, so it works well. It’s good to have good friends like that. She also overthinks things at times, which is something I think that all of us do, especially when she’s doing something new, which she is with Lukus. I really like Tiffany a lot.

With each book, I like Lukus even more. I understand why he did the things he did in the first book, but one of the things I really liked is that as he learned new information about the situation, he was able to adjust his actions. He didn’t just go Me Dom, Me Know Best. Of course, he still was all about him Dom, but you get the difference, I hope. I get it, but I’m not sure that I can quite eplain it.

I like Brianna and Markus more as we get to know them. Especially Markus. He made some admissions in this one that really changed the way that I thought about him.

I’m not happy that Briana had to go through the things with Jake that she did, but I’m happy that Markus is finally seeing the truth of things.

OK, that’s all for this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Eva Charles-Decadent

Before we move on to the book part of today’s blog, I do just want to gush a little over the fact that I got my car today. The nice transport man from Carvana stopped his car transporter at the top of my tiny country road, and then drove it down to my house. And then right past my house. But, he came back, and I remember how to drive a stick shift, even after 18 years.

But, enough of that, let’s talk books. Decadent is the fourth and probably last of the Devil’s Due books by Eva Charles. They are dark romances, heavy on the thriller/suspense, and loads of kink. They do deal with a lot of politics, especially the firsts 2 books, but that’s the world they are set in, so there’s that. There is less politics in this one and what is there is more foreign than domestic. It could be read as a standalone, since the Gray and Delilah’s story is complete in and of itself, well mostly, but there are spoilers for the first 3 books. Also, if you read the first books, you will have a better grasp on who everyone is and how they all fit together.

Delilah is a former CIA operative. She was trained to act undercover, but then her cover got blown in a big way, in front of a Congressional hearing kind of big. So, now she works for Smith, as part of his security firm. She used to work undercover at Wildflower, which is Gray’s club/sex club, but that got blown too. But she and Gray have been dancing around each other for a while now. But nothing has really co me of it. Until, that is, the day that Gray catches her doing something she probably shouldn’ta ought’a done, and extorts her to join a mission that he has. She’s the perfect person for it, so Gray wants her to do it. And, well, he just wants her in general.

Gray lives with a lot of regrets and a lot of guilt. He also has a whole lot of secrets. One of those secrets is that he works for the FBI in a super sekrit department, doing super sekrit things. For that department, he has a mission that is going to be dangerous, and he needs a beautiful woman who can be his arm candy but who can also hold her own. So, he of course thinks of Delilah. He does what he has to so that he can get her on his team, even though there were other ways that he could’ve gone about it, but eventually, she agrees to help him on his mission.

Gray is really confusing to me throughout the first parts of the book. He comes off as an asshole, with bits of compassion and caring coming through. Or, maybe it’s the other way around. I’m not even sure that Gray could tell on his own. Like I said, confusing. I think that he’s a good man, even when he has done some bad things, and he really has done some not good things. But, he does them from a place of honor and a place where he’s a good man who has to do things that he might not like. If that makes sense. It does to me. He really had to hide his emotions, and I think that he has hidden them from himself at times. It takes him some time to figure that out, I think.

I really like Delilah. I think that she has come really far from where she started out. But, I think that some of that has dug into her brain and doesn’t want to let go. Let’s just say that her mother has a lot to answer for. And so does her dead husband. But Delilah works really hard to stand on her own two feet. She’s strong, a fighter, talented, and smart. And she’s an asset to any team that she’s on, which is a part of why Gray wants her on his team. I think, mostly, that’s a convenient excuse for Gray, really. I think that he came up with this justification to get to her in a way that seemed to give him some emotional distance from the fact that he really just wants her as a woman. If she is part of his team, then they don’t have a real relationship, and he’s safe from her. Like I said, convenient excuse.

That prince. Ugh. He’s just scummy.

OK, that’s all for this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Claire Marta-The Dove and The Darkness

This is the 2nd Claire Marta book of this week, as promised. The Dove and the Darkness is the 5th book in her Ceasefire series, and it covers Cassandra’s story. You have to read these in order, you can’t just jump into a book in the middle of the series and get it. There’s a whole lot going on, and you need the background to understand why Cassandra did the things that she did and why she has ended up where she is.

For those who aren’t familiar with Ceasefire, it’s a lot to try to explain. It’s a PNR. It primarily deals with Hell and various Hell and underworld dimensions. Lucifer is a main character in the first books, and is a supporting character in all the other books, including this one. So, Cassandra is an Oracle, who was raised in Hell from the time she was 6, as Lucifer’s foster daughter and her 1/2 sister is Mavi, who is Lucifer’s consort. It’s complicated.

Cassandra made some choices based on some information she got from her visions, and, well, it didn’t necessarily go well for her. When she wakes up somewhere she isn’t familiar with, she starts to worry. That’s when she finds out that she’s been taken from where she was and is now in a prison, waiting to be trained so that she can be given to the person who has bought her. And her training isn’t going to be how to sit and embroider a pretty picture. Nope, she’s going to learn to do all the sexual things out there, and if she doesn’t do it right, bad things are going to happen.

That’s where Master Soren comes into play. He’s there to train Cassandra. He’s all very Dom-ly. He is nominally under the Warden, but you get the idea that there is a lot more going on there than we are seeing. The Warden, who is a nasty ass bitch, really likes him, because he will totally Top her when she wants him to. Soren is basically in charge of the training, which is what brings Cassandra to his attention. He’s been doing this for a very long time, so he knows what he’s doing. That includes isolating her in a room by herself and giving her no other contact for days, other than sliding food in under a grate. When he comes to get her again, she’s so grateful to see him, because she gets to see someone. When Cassandra is good, she gets orgasms. When she’s bad, she gets punished. Soren really enjoys it. Cassandra definitely enjoys it, at least parts of it. There are other things that she likes about the time she spends with him.

I like Cassandra. I think that she is a lot stronger than anyone really gives her credit for. I mean, she does have all these visions, and if she’s not careful, they do overwhelm her. I mean, they do get overwhelming enough that she has hurt herself to help control everything, but she’s still dealt with these things all her life. Being raised by a demon and Lucifer, she has been really protected from a lot, but that doesn’t mean that she hasn’t had terrible things happen to her anyway. And she survived that. In this case, even as Soren is breaking her down and she is getting in deeper with him, she is still trying to be herself, and she is still fighting. I have a lot of respect for that, and I think that it’s going to do her a lot of good in the future.

Interestingly enough, I feel like I don’t have as good a grasp on Soren as I could. I think I like what we’ve seen of him, but there’s just a lot hidden when it comes to him. Even being in his head at times doesn’t necessarily give us a lot to him. But, like I said, I think that I like what we know about him. I can’t wait for the next book, to see more about him.

Before you read this, remember that this stuff may be spoilers.

It took me an embarrassingly long time to realize who Soren is, where they are, and who his brother is. I wanted to dope slap myself when I got there, because duh.

OK, that’s all for this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!